End of Secondary 2

Hello readers,

Another chapter of my lower secondary school life has come to the end and a new chapter is ahead of me. I have spent two years with my classmates from class 2/2 and it has been an honour to be in this special class. If you asked me whether have I missed my previous classmates, I would say I don't because I did not really bond well with them, unlike my current classmates of two years. I have no idea why did I thought like that, I don't know... Maybe I was not opened to my surroundings.

I first met my classmates in Secondary One Orientation in 2011. Among two Normal (Academic) classes, I was allocated to 1/2. I only started talking to my classmates properly was during class and not in camp. During my time in camp, I was too busy trying to survived for two days, one night and I admit that this was the first school camp I have ever went. I remembered treating my classmates horribly because I did not know who to trust and my primary school friends were not reliable and they changed. 2012 was the year where I experienced teenage problems that I have never faced before. People criticizing you, bullying you and backstabbing you... To me, I did not know how to faced it. I could not bear to faced reality in secondary school. I couldn't.

After many months later, I understood the life in secondary school and my classmates accepted as who I am. In return, I accepted my classmates as who they are. My classmates taught me many values and experiences in life. I am grateful to meet them and 'grow' with them as I go. Now, it's time... Time to say farewell and go separate ways. Some might take Design & Technology, Food & Nutrition, Art or Principles of Accounts. :-)

Today I spent my last day of school with my classmates in GSS Estate Management Talk, Inter-house competition, Spring-cleaning and watched Wreck-It Ralph. Wreck-It Ralph was a beautiful animated film on game industry of 30 years and showed how Ralph was not accepted by others till these people realized how important he was in the game when he did not turned up on the game which was played by a girl in the arcade. I did not managed to watch the film completely but I have to say it was a beautiful and touching.

I shall end here with a photo of my class and my fellow classmates, thank you and I love you! All the best for upcoming E-streaming and be happy with the subjects you are going to take next year. Looking forward seeing you guys soon!

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1 year anniversary + NUS Museum

Hello readers,

Today is the day where I want to celebrate this one year anniversary with Devil In The Skull. Devil In The Skull was opened on October 19, 2012 and introduced further two months later. My first post for the blog was this, followed by another post regarding on why did I chose the name, Devil In The Skull as the blog URL and name. I chose to make Devil In The Skull's layout like the above one because I wanted to make the blog looked simple and stunning. :)

I would like to thanked everyone and you for reading this blog and those who have been on Devil In The Skull for one year, thank you. I hope this blog will stay alive till adulthood.

Now lets moved on to another blog post which I will merged here and I considered this as a late post. I went to National University of Singapore Museum (NUS Museum) on October 17, 2013, Thursday. I have to say that I enjoyed looking at the artifacts and potteries. Here are some photos I have picked for the post since some of the ones I have taken aren't very clear due to lighting reflection and passerby(s).

Took this while waiting for further instruction from teachers.

Asian collections!

Here's my classmates, Irman, Gracia and Li Jing :)

Super 8 camera! Thanks to the curator, I managed to watched a small clip on this camera which showed a camera rolling.

Panorama version of collected positive/negative photos

Now on to pottery and sculptures collection!

"Hi there!"

An artist donated his photo collection and these were taken back in the 80s.

Moving on to pottery collection (yes another collection but they are mostly fragments).

Apologize for the blurry photo but they are plates and bowls which were fixed together again. Thus, this is why some have missing pieces.

That is all I have today and happy one year anniversary, Devil In The Skull!

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I am not enough for anyone am I?

I’m not enough for anyone am I? Being me is not enough. Because when I’m authentic I get nothing. And when I try to change to suit someone else I get nothing. And when I’m apathetic and let myself be shallowly cut hundreds of times I get nothing. And when I cry out in pain at one cut I get nothing. And when I lavish my love I get nothing. And when I force myself to hold back I get nothing. And when I dress up I get nothing. And when I dress down I get nothing. And when I’m warm, nothing. Cold, nothing. Soft, nothing. Hard, nothing. Happy, nothing. Sad….terrified….angry….lonely….hurt….And no matter what I have ever done. What I’ve ever been. Who I’ve ever been… I have wound up with nothing because there is nothing I can do to please anyone anymore.

I am not enough for anyone am I?

Have anyone told you that you are not enough? Have you been criticized harshly that you think you are not worth it to anyone? In life, there are many types of people. You would meet the good, bad, depressing, nerds and even averages. These people are the ones who give you experience and lessons. They would try to hurt you and leave scars that cannot be treated. No matter where we go, what we do and what we faced, we must stay strong and persevere. In life, there is a need to act and lie, so you can get some perks. If we don't, we might suffer.

Life is like a game, there is always a loser and winner at the end of the game.

 

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Prose

Hello readers,

I found this prose on Tumblr and would like to share it with you guys:

Every night I sit down & I try so hard to write out the things that shake me. Because I think too much & I don’t talk enough & I write too often, but still not nearly as much as I should. But you see, writing is healing. It is a slow way of coming undone. A slower way of taking apart those so tightly woven seams & revealing oneself in moderation so that anxieties won’t fluster the heart strings. More often than not, the only time I write something profound is when I am sleepy. When I feel so light & slight & at ease. Every night that I write, it sort of feels like my shoulders are marble from the weight of that day & I’ve just chiseled away the edges of heaviness in my clavicles. I don’t know. I just feel light. I feel lighter is all. But you know, my eyelashes are feeling quite heavy right now & all of a sudden these words just seem wrong. I apologize.

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Sasaengs

WARNING: IF YOU THINK YOU MIGHT GET OFFENDED OR YOU WOULD SAY ME FOR MENTIONING EXO, THEN I SUGGEST YOU SHOULDN'T READ THIS POST. I AM AN EXO FAN TOO BUT THERE ARE SOME STUFF THAT I MAY NOT LIKE ABOUT THEM OR I THINK IT IS NOT RIGHT.

Hello readers,

Today I am here to talk about Sasaengs which has been trending on Twitter for a few days.

If you have no idea what are Sasaengs, they are known to be fanatics towards their idol. They would do anything just to see or get the attention from their idol like following them home, sleeping in front of their house or even weirder, putting their own personal stuff like used sanitary pads in front of their door.

Why was Sasaengs trended on Twitter? They disturbed K-pop group, EXO which occurred last week. On September 28, 2013, the sasaengs appeared at the wedding of member Baekhyun's brother which caused a chaos and led to member calling them, "crazy humans". According to photos and statements, some sasaengs were seen at the lobby of the wedding and Baekhyun's face turned red. Before the wedding took place, member Tao took to his Weibo (he has deleted this post) and expressed his anger saying,

"我实在是受不了半夜三更一直给我们打电话的、一天到晚发短信发KAKAO的、不管去哪里都要偷偷跟着的那种人，有意思吗？我很讨厌别人来打扰我的生活！我喜欢逛街吃饭在外面见朋友，但我不喜欢被人跟着，我不是罪人！出去不是去犯罪！我只想工作完了可以安静的休息，有属于自己的空间！而不是像现在这样！"

"I really cannot stand calls coming in the middle of the night, endless messages from Kakao, no matter where I go there's always people following, is it that fun and meaningful? I hate people who disturb my private life! I love eating with my friends outside, however I don't like people stalking me, I am not an offender! Going out is not against the law! All I want is to get my work done so I can have my quiet, peaceful rest, especially giving myself space! Not how it is now!"

In my opinion, what Tao wrote was simply out of frustration. If not, why did he delete this post after this was on his Weibo? It is funny to see how Tao mentioned about eating with friends outside. I mean if you want privacy, I suggest that he should not write too much about his private life. He can simply get a new mobile number if there are people calling every night or turn on the "Do Not Disturb" mode which can be found on iPhone settings (he owns a white iPhone 5). Tao should not just say off to the sasaengs in this manner in the first place. If he wanted to type out his anger and frustration, he should have typed it out in a polite way to avoid having clashes with sasaengs.

Although I know that sasaengs' actions are wrong, I believed EXO should have handle this matter in a right way and not telling them off. As a celebrity, they must keep their reputation. Since EXO is still a new K-pop group, I hope this matter would gain them experience and moral values in future. The sasaengs should seriously learned how to balance their personal life and interests. As sasaengs are mostly made up of teenagers, they should learned how to control themselves over temptation. Parents should also teach their child how to limit themselves too.

That is all for now and stay strong EXO, especially Baekhyun. :-)

P.S. I have checked the photo of Baekhyun and it seemed that he looked drunk instead of being angry. There were many statements saying that there were no chaos. A photo of a fan standing on a chair was a relative filming the whole wedding. I am not sure whether those are true or not but in a meantime, a statement made by member Kris seemed to be 'fake'.

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