I am here to talk about my recent problem or issue that I have been facing this week.
I have many questions left unanswered by people whom I know and even my loved ones. These issues are related to my habit on social media. I admit that I am a loner and I am married to my studies instead of devoting myself to friendship. I have no idea why, why am I interested in studies ever since I stepped into secondary school.
Back when I was in primary school, I was not interested in my studies and I did not take pride in them. I was let down and only began to study when there was only one month left to Primary School Leaving Examination. Now that was three years ago in 2011 and I remembered promising my mother that I would get 190 and above and I did. Most of my study habit was basically came from the rewards I get at the end of the day and the enjoyment I get from using my iPad, smartphone or watching a television series/movie. Had I not worked hard for PSLE, I would not have the study habit and attitude in secondary school.
Having a study habit and great attitude are good things. However, when I finally got engaged to studies, I realized I had a hard time making friends. I could not trust my previous classmates or even my outside of class friends in CCA too. I just couldn't. I still remembered how my classmate asked me to do something and in the end, I felt betrayed two years ago. I also remembered crying every single week after coming home during Secondary One because I could not trust anyone or make friends. I cried because no one accepted me and everyone said I was weird which I did not mind. I was just sad that most of my friends I made in secondary school treated me like a stranger and all they do is backstabbing me. It hurts.
The only way I could get some friends is through social media like Twitter, Facebook or Instagram. These social networking sites helped me in defining my character profile and also letting the people who knew me to know what type of person I am. I must thanked Steve Jobs for creating this revolutionary cyber world with a touch of your fingertips. :-) I am glad that these smart gadgets or social media sites helped defined me in many ways.
In my opinion, I believed that "time will changed everything about this hell" and I should try to be open-minded in this society. With my basic instinct and continuing my success in studies, I can be an asset to the world instead of being a liability. I have my mind settled on one option in the future after Secondary 4 and I will not reveal it till further next time.
I hope you, readers are feeling positive these days and wishing an advanced Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese out there!
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