THERE ARE SOME VULGARS IN THIS POST, SO DO READ WITH CAUTION.
Hello readers,
I thought I just take this moment to write a post regarding about what has happened for the past weeks or years. I decided to use this opportunity to come out, what I felt and what have I done. The quote does justify every actions as an individual.
In school, I learned that humans at times are selfish. They only used you when they have something that you have. Friends are friends. They are just there for you for power and control. I happened to feel like an outsider because I was not similar like them. I am not as outspoken as any girls in my class. I am not as cool as the bunch of cliques that frequently make themselves known. All they see me is that I am just like the nerds in the movies, always studying and have no social life. It pains me to say this but I am just like any humans out there. I have a life where my iPad and movies are always there everyday. Books and studies aren't the sugar to my English Breakfast Tea.
This afternoon, I entered the washroom to changed into my PE t-shirt and shorts. After coming out, there was a clique trying to be fabulous. I was such a fucking fool, they were making a fucking joke out of me. This was not the cause of my frustration, but the trigger was when this girl had the gut to say, "Hmm...If you think you're one of the pusses." Okay, that girl said hello to me and just happened when I replied, she said hello bitches. The word, pussy, some may think it is just a way of saying someone is timid or frightened. I do not know what is the purpose of her saying that joke to me. What I do know is that pussy is a slang to insult a woman and also a way of saying a woman is a sex object. Another interpretation is as simple as saying the cat.
I was disgusted by the joke the girl mentioned, specially when she is a female. Worst of all, she patted on my right shoulder when she said the joke. Had I got another chance of this situation, I could swear I wish smacking her head or better still, calling her a fucking pussy. I walked out of the washroom and yup, I let the clique had their victory. Isn't it fun to call someone a pussy? Well, to be completely honest, even when one really dislike me, no one uses that word. I rather someone call me a bitch than pussy. Hopefully, may karma come and attack that precious.
No matter how much I talked or helped a person, well... I did not really have a chance to get any favour back from him or her. I learnt that I should not be too opened and shall continue adapting a selfish, "watching people dying" attitude. My kindness is in fact being used as a way to make a joke out of it. From today onwards, I will ensure I fight my way up and gain the throne in the finishing line. I want to see the day where people have to bowed down and I will walked up to my throne like a character from Game of Thrones. You see, I am willing to take any steps to achieve my goal. When I do, I will make sure people know who is the fucking pussy right now...
P.S. I made this post with no intention of promoting feminism. I claimed that I am not a feminist and everything I wrote here was a way to get into people's head. Whether the joke was just for a laugh or an indirect insult, that was way too much for person who does not know me well or rarely talk to me. If you have any problem or issue with me, please feel free to Whatsapp or message me privately. I am happy to discuss with you. You want to know the real truth or feelings, please do the same.